last night i went to dinner with my ex boyfriend

the five year one.

we went and ate sushi.

as we're being seated, i go to take my seat in the booth facing the restaurant. uhm, ya i don't sit with my back to the door. anywhere. because of the "what if i get jumped" factor. it's an old habit, and trust me it HAS come in handy just like i thought.
but he pushes his way to my seat.

"no no no, i don't sit with my back to the door," he says.
"well, neither do i," say i.
"ya but I'M the boy," he says. "i know that you're the alpha dog in all your other relationships, but not with me."

you know? he's right. i always say that i want to be the woman in a relationship. and i want the man to be the man. but i'm not going to just give it to you. you have to take it.

i've known this for a long time about myself, but still keep picking men that don't stand up to me. silly, really, doncha think?

the sushi was awesome. everything he ordered was perfect.