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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

home on the range

so here i am. a little over six years after starting the LA hating blog, and i have little or no hate left. i mean, there's the whole courtney love thing but even that is waning. which is truly fucked up.

i got married, hadababyitsagirl and now i have another one on the way.

i have stuff going on, but nothing like hate. once i fell in love with my husband it was hard to hate anymore. and now that i have fallen in love with my daughter, it's damn near impossible. shit just gets put into perspective i guess.

maybe i'm still honeymooning. i'm only 2 years into the marriage. i had to get shit done because i'm an old lady. my biggest suffering today comes from financial insecurity. i still have trouble with a budget and saving money and all that. from the looks of our national financial identity, i'm not alone.

i think about blogging a lot. but the things that drive me batty these days are so personal. i guess they were personal then too. i don't know why i'm afraid to continue. i guess i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

i started another blog, a secret blog. i mean, you can find it, but i can fix that. i wonder whether to blog there and tell all, or blog here and just tone it down. toning it down sounds horribly boring. but there's nothing to say that my life isn't boring anyway.

so yeah how'm i doing? heh. i used to write a column about my sexual escapades and now i talk about hemorrhoids and toddler poop consistency. woot.