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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

one more week

at least i got my period yesterday
so i won't have to deal with that on the
operating table.

so when the doctor said
"this happens a lot in you people."
i meant to ask "what people?"
drug addicts?
coffee drinkers?

i mean he has so much information on me
which could it be?

and while i'm at it
i'll say that as an
i worry for two extra reasons:

1. what if the drugs don't work on me because i've built up some super tolerance as a result of being a garbage head all those years?

2. i'm going to try to not take narcotics afterwards but if i have lots of pain i'll have to and then what if i find myself taking them recreationally instead of for the pain how will i know when i cross the line and jeez i don't want to lose everything again i've been doing so well here lately.

ok there i said it out loud.