don't forget...

thursday is the new saturday over at FTTW.

in two more days there'll be a new screaming like a banshee and it will not disappoint. so, uh, what i mean to say is that if you're a family member you may not want to read this one.

like if you thought the last two were bad... uh... ya maybe just take the day off.

cuz, i don't know if you heard but we're on a mission to destroy.

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ok so it's been fucking hell around here lately. mostly a self imposed hell, but hell nonetheless.

the boy is gone for good. i really fucked that one up. it's ok. i'm fucking sad but i will live.

i keep having the feeling that god is taking a machete to the parts of my life in which i was behaving badly. i keep waiting for this blog to self destruct at any moment.

i was a self righteous bitch at my waitress/bar job. i hated the way i conducted my self there and could never manage to change it. so what happens? WHACK! gone.

i was a self-worthless bitch in my relationship. and then i cheated. WHACK! gone.

so now i get to start over. start from nothing. i can't help feeling like i should stay single for a little while. i've not ever been good at being single. and i do feel like i'm a bit old to be going it alone. but, hey, it can't hurt to breathe for a minute. i've got grad school. i've got dogs. i've got self improvement tactics to practice.

please god don't let me turn into the dog lady...