get a fucking life

uhm ok so ya.
have i told you that i'm dating someone?

NO?!?!

how could i be so INSENSITIVE?

heh.

yes i guess you could call it dating.
more like in love i want to marry him and have his babies and live together forever happily ever am i getting ahead of myself only slightly holy cow how did this happen???

creep. i'm a creep i know but i don't fucking care this shit totally blind sided me and i can't lie about it i'd only be doing myself a disservice.

k let's just say some stuff here that's new for me. this guy is completely available. and i don't just mean that he's not in the midst of a seperation from his wife which in and of itself would be PROGRESS PEOPLE seriously, wtf? ya so no ex-wife, no kids... also he's available emotionally. i know. weird. what the fuck is he doing hanging out with me, right?

ok, more... uh... he's three years older than me, clean for many more years than i, he (get this) LIKES punk rock, documentaries, museums and long walks on the beach. ok i just added that last part in there to see if you were paying attention, but still i'm in GAY MODE to the FULLEST because as i was typing it i was thinking "aw that would be nice a long walk on the beach with him..." i told you GAY GAY GAY as my boy dog GAY!

so get this... we were friends FIRST. not like friends for three days wow he's really deep now i'm going to MOVE HIM IN friends, but real friends. like OH MY GOD I'VE BEEN ACTING LIKE MYSELF THIS WHOLE TIME DAMAGE CONTROL!!? but really, he apparently likes me for who i really am. he was there for the whole cheating on my boyfriend trying to find the real me, drug addict liar extrordinaire thing and still he thinks i'm a good person.

so nevermind the fact that our first real date was the best day ever... yesterday he bought me a CHRISTMAS TREE AND SET IT UP IN MY HOUSE!!!! awwww...

ya and there's just so much more but i can't tell you now because uh crimony i can't be ALL GAY ALL DAY...